January 2012
18 posts
I cannot even begin to describe how excited I am for the Strength In Numbers concert!
Only 20 days!
Only one dilemma, I have no clue what to wear…
I’ve decided to start a help get me through college/giving back project.
I have the idea, now I just need a good name…
Be on the look out for updates :)
Although I’m not 100% caught up on my school work just yet, I feel SO accomplished tonight!
Great feeling to end the night with!
As a reward to myself, I will be watching whatever mindless movie I can find on TV and crocheting :)
Inivisible.
I just wrote the first “Lettres Jamais Envoyées” in my journal. Once I closed it up, put my pen down I got anxious and worried. I started thinking what if the person(s) I wrote about realize it’s them. This could definitely cause some issues.
Then, I realized I wrote it in a journal.
I didn’t post it on tumblr, or write some semi-encoded, but fairly obviously passive...
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“Oh, I think I’d hate you, if it were worth my time.
But I won’t...”
– Memphis May Fire “Gingervitus”
Dear God,
This is my public cry out to you.
I surrender unto you, all of me.
Lovingly yours,
Jessica
I’ve been a week without a vehicle, one more day won’t kill me right?
But the stress from it all just might.
This whole not sleeping well thing is not working for me.
I think it's stupid that I miss you right now.
But I can’t help how I feel.
I’m trying this whole new thing, well new to me at least, of embracing my emotions as they come.
Therefore, I miss you, right now. I may think that’s stupid, but I’ll let myself miss you, and then move on, because that’s the only way I can deal with how I feel right now. Since I can’t make you appear, I can’t make you be here...
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many...”
– James 1:2-8 (NIV)
I Feel Different.
I can’t explain it, I just feel different.
A lot has changed, but I’ve accepted the difficult and embraced the good.
Something feels different though.
I sit here staring at my phone, expecting myself to come to some explanation as I write, but nothing comes to mind.
Normally this would keep me up all night, trying you figure it out, but I’m not going to let it.
...
And I’m just now going to bed…
Apparently sleep is over-rated in 2012.
Happy New Year
May it be filled with overwhelming blessings!
December 2011
23 posts
New Year, New Start
Blah, blah, blah.
Not to ruin it for anyone else, if this is the way you think about New Year’s, but why wait for a new year for a fresh start?
People make resolutions, and when/if they fail, they make the excuse of “I’ll try again next year.” What’s the point in that?
I got a new, cute, little journal for Christmas, and I thought to myself, “I’ll...
I sit here with so much on my mind.
It’s been awhile since that’s happened. My thoughts have been more focused. I don’t overthink the little things, I just deal and move on.
But something is different about tonight. And all I want to do is write about how I feel.
Write about how I feel lonely right now, and I’m okay with that. That just because I’m lonely...
Why am I awake at 2:30 a.m.?
Oh that’s right…I lost track of time watching Bleach and crocheting.
Oh well, good night.
jakereads asked: ahhh okay it looks amazing!!! :D so talented, merry christmas and happy holidays!! (:
Sketch. Crochet. Repeat.
My To-Do List (for tonight):
Finish jakereads drawing
Start Darcy’s drawing
Finish crochet hat
Finish tattoo design for Terry
Draw up my tattoo design
Good thing I’m starting all of this at 11:29 p.m.
jakereads asked: hey hows the artwork of us coming along? (:
Guess what's on my schedule tonight?
Crocheting.
Yup, that’s it. Crocheting.
All. Night. Long. (Or until I can’t keep my eyes open or I start to get carpel tunnel.)
I never thought I’d be this excited about spending my nights crocheting. How old am I again? 73? That sounds about right…
Kringla
Apparently I didn’t get the Norwegian cooking gene, because I failed at making Kringla tonight. Looks like I’ll have to pick up some cookies from the store for tomorrows potluck.
Better luck next time, I guess.
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Found Another Hobby
Decided to go to JoAnn’s today, bought two things of yarn and some crocheting needles. Got home, watched five minutes of a video on how to make a beanie, and have been crocheting for the last two and a half hours.
I’ve been debating whether or not to just stay up and finish it or go to bed.
I’m obsessed and not ashamed that I’m hooked on a “grandma” hobby.
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I’m going to change the world, one person at a time. Starting with myself.
Frustrated
That’s all.
Drawing is one of those rare things that I can completely focus on. The rest of the world stops. My mind is still. Not a care. Just paper, pencils, pens, and the lines I’m drawing.
That to me is truly a gift.
Just mailed off my official transcripts to the four colleges I’m looking at.
Aww. I’m growing up.
:)
jakereads asked: hey how are you? (: just wanted to see how the drawing was coming along (:
The People of Walmart
Running into people you know/seeing someone you know and hiding from them, while in Walmart, is even more hilarious when they are dressed similar to “The People of Walmart”.
Even more hilarious than that, when the person you saw is your ex’s ex-girlfriend.
Bahahahaha!
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Bored...
No homework. No work in the morning. I can do whatever I want, and I’m sitting here bored. I’m too lazy to do anything productive like clean my room, do laundry, apply to colleges, etc.
I always get annoyed with people when they say they are bored, because there are so many things to do, and they are just being lazy. So yes, I’m admitting to being lazy right now. Nothing sounds...
There was that one night. I called you. I was upset. We talked for awhile. You told me you would call me back in the morning. I didn’t believe you. As stupid as it sounds now, I told you if you didn’t call me in the morning, I’d never speak to you again.
You called. You cared about me. I was happy.
Now, I wish you NEVER called me that morning.
November 2011
48 posts
I strongly dislike inconsiderate, rude people, especially when they are driving. They talk shit, do rude gestures, all because they are in the “safety” of their vehicle. Yes, I’m guilty of these too, but at least I have a somewhat more justified reason, most of the time.
Don’t honk at me to go, when there are clearly cars coming… If it was acceptable, I’d back...
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The Air I Breathe & Sleeping With Sirens
On repeat.
All day.
I feel like running away.
Who’s with me?
It’s difficult to argue with someone when they won’t acknowledge their wrong(s).
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Nocturne in E Flat Major, Op 9, No. 2 (Chopin) →
I wouldn’t mind if this played on repeat, in my head, for the rest of my life.
Starting Thanksgiving off with...
Haydn
Mozart
Schumann
Chopin
Debussy
Zwilich
And so I can keep organized with the rest of the catching up I have to do for my class.
Things to do for MUSC&105:
Classical Period Listening Assignment
Romantic Period Listening Assignment
20th Century and Beyond Listening Assignment
Retrospect Discussion Post
Scavenger Hunt Post
Grande Finale Post (not due until 11/30, I think?)
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